“Be not afraid of going slowly, be afraid only of standing still.”
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Chinese Proverb
As long as you’re moving and going in the right direction that is all that matters. It doesn’t matter how long it’s taking you. The point is, you’re getting there, you’re working to reach a goal. We all go at do things at different paces in life.
I was here before!
The temple in Oahu...You have to check it out, even if you're not buddhist, it doesn't matter. This temple is so serene and peaceful. Just being there puts you in a clear state of mind. As ridiculous I may sound, being there just totally cleansed my soul.
I think we all contradict ourselves at one point in time. I think its perfectly normal. It doesn't bother me as long as you own up to it. Then you'll just be considered "bad" and you did a bad thing. Oh well, life continues.
What pisses me off is when people still deny that they contradicted themselves when its very obvious. It shows me that you're too stubborn to admit your faults. It shows me that you'll never break old habits, you'll never learn.
I adore Audrey Hepburn! She was such a classic beauty. She was unlike all the other Hollywood starlets during her time. She wasn't curvaceous, she wasn't a sex pot; Audrey was this skinny old thing but nevertheless just as gorgeous, if not more gorgeous. She was a style icon and great actress.
What I adored most about her was spirit, her endeavors outside of the acting world. She is someone I still look up to even after her death. She kind of steered me in the direction I'm headed towards with my studies and career.Audrey Hepburn is a great role model.
I think if you watch the videos below, you'll get a better understanding of who she was. Maybe you'll learn to love her just as much as I do
The past few days I've been going back listening to my Rooney albums. Rooney is one of my favorite bands ever! They're songs are so melodic. If I could describe them, I'd say they're a cross between the Beach Boys and the Beatles. There's no denying where they're from when you hear their sound. I have mad love for this band. Gotta love and rep for my CA bands =)
Anyways, so one of their songs is called What For and I think its a beautiful song and so relevant to today. All I hear coming out of peoples mouths is how they deceive/play n&*(as AND B^%$#es and make them feel like they actually like them, when in fact they don't. They just want to get their thrills in and then discard of the other person as soon as they're bored with them.
How can people be so cold-hearted and insensitive to the feelings of others? How can they pretend to be someone they're not and make someone fall for that fake-being/persona? In the end, they just leave and the other person gets hurt because they actually believed them. They thought that the other person really did love them and cared for them, when really they were just using them. I don't ever ever ever intend on hurting someone like that.
Below are the lyrics & video....Enjoy!
What For lyrics
You don't know what's right anymore
You think your love is just a score
Are you too young or afraid to grow up?
You can work this out if you both try
It's hard to cheat but harder to lie
Is this what you want or just a passing thought?
Maybe you should think about it
Before you go and break her heart
Maybe you need more time to decide
Ask yourself "what for?
What for, what for, what for?"
You painted a picture she wanted to see
You can laugh this one off but it's not funny
She's given you everything she has
Oh oh
Maybe you should think about it
Before you go and break her heart
Maybe you need more time to decide
Ask yourself, "what for?
What for, what for, what for?"
You wanted her and you got her
But you're still so careless with your words
If you let her go, she'll move on
Find someone, she's never coming back
How can you live with that?
Maybe you should think about it
Before you go and break her heart
Maybe you need more time to decide
So you should think about it some more
Ask yourself, "what for?"
(I know it sounds like the same old line)
What for?
(I know it seems like the same old guy)
What for?
(Maybe I don't know how to treat you right)
What for?
(Maybe you'll meet someone to know your life)
What for?
(You said I lied since the day we met)
What for?
(But I meant every word I said)
What for?
(Someday you'll miss every single day we spent)
What for?
What's terrible is to pretend that the second-rate is first-rate, that you don't need love when you do or that you like your work when you know quite well you're capable of better.
Doris Lessing (1919 - ?) British Writer
YES! Someone who understands! There are too many people settling for what will do for now, rather than holding out on settling until they get what they are worthy of. I cannot permit myself to do that. No I'm not talking about little things like settling for Swiss cheese when they don't have muenster cheese or something like that! Life issues. I'll talk about amore'
On Love/Liking A Person: I can't fake a relationship. As soon as I realize I don't like a person or are not feeling it, then I won't go any further and lead a person on. I'll discontinue the hanging out process to avoid having them fall for me even more. I don't want to hurt their feelings. I have a conscience. I wouldn't like anyone to do that to me, so why would I do that to someone else? Its just cruel. Unless I truly and utterly feel a deep connection with the individual, if I really am attracted to them then I will pursue it; but not without a little more investigating. I've had friends who would lead people on just to fulfill their needs of having someone to give them attention. They weren't their type to begin with, but they went ahead with it. It honestly hurts my heart to see that. I'd rather save the person some time and end it asap before they get anymore invested in me.
Don't go into relationships if you're not certain of it, if you are settling for the 2nd-rate.
I've known of Uffie for quite some time now. I first discovered Uffie's music a few years back on a friends profile in the "then" popular networking site myspace (r.i.p.)...I was like who the f&*k is this chick? She was rapping in an English accent and talking about being a hot chick and not sucking d&*( and all this other mess...It hella had me laughing!...It was absurd but nevertheless entertaining and kind of infectious and charming? LOL
So from there, I had to research her....turns out this English-rapping chick really isn't British. Born Anne-Catherine Hartley, she was originally from Florida. She moved around a lot in her childhood with her father. Around 15, she moved over to Paris where she became involved in the music and dance scene. In 2006 she was signed to Ed Banger records based off her single "Pop The Glock"; a collaborated with Dj Feadz (her fiance)...She's an '87 baby like me too! Yay!
She still hasn't released an album, just singles, but after 4 years in the making they have set for her freshman album "Sex Dreams & Denim Jeans" to be released in early 2010! I hope some of you learn to love her music. I certainly do.
Here is the video to her first single POP THE GLOCK with some lyrics
Mc am i, people call me uff
when i rock the party, you bust a nut
feadz is breaking out the beat
shit be hotter, than me
me and he, our crews a militia
better watch out, my clan gets vicious
bad ass bitch, im rated x
im gifted, aint gotta sell sex
cross the beach onto the street
gotta work hard, no room to cheat
crunk n grime, thats my bloodline
feadz is mixin, uffies shoutin
uff is bangin, feadz is bangin
time to get low, do the tootsie roll
thats how we do, do it hot
and if you understood, would you?
stop hatin and playin hard
i got a loaded bodygaurd
dont make him pull out the glock and pop
uffies gonna make this shit rock
like do, do i like
boys call on me when they feel freaky hot
i run this show, you got to slow
pick up the pace, with you cracked out face
uffies bangin, feadz is bangin
time to get low, do the tootsie roll
thats how we do, do it hot
and if you understood, would you?
beat my ryhme, if you can
yea you talk shit, think i care?
my style in this flow, is confusin cause ya dont know
pop the glock,pop the glock, pop the glock, pop the glock, pop the glock pop the glock pop the glock, the glock you pop
sound like twista, fast as hell
i rock this beat you know damn well
gonna make it to the top
spit this shit, till you drop
down low is where ya keep it boy
dont let anyone know
gonna tear you down, underneath you just a clown
time everyone see, what you really be
play the game, the game gets played
i got a man and he goes by feadz
play the game, the game gets played
i got a man and he goes by feadz
uff is bangin, feadz is bangin
time to get low, do the tootsie roll
thats how we do, do it hot
and if you understood, would you?
beat my ryhme, if you can
yea ya talk shit, think i care?
my style in this flow, is confusin cause ya dont know
pop the glock, the glock you pop
if you outta line its you ill bang pop
pop the glock, the glock you pop
if you outta line its you ill bang pop
pop the glock, the glock you pop
if you outta line its you ill bang pop
uff is bangin,uff is bangin,uff is bangin, feadz is bangin
uff is bangin, feadz is bangin
time to get low, do the tootsie roll
uff is bangin, feadz is bangin, uff is bangin, feadz is bangin
me and he our crews a militia
better watch out my clan gets vicious
thats how we do, do it hot
and if you understood, would you?
stop hatin and playin hard
i got a loaded bodygaurd
dont make him pull out the glock and pop
uffies gonna make this shit rock
like do, do i like
boys call on me when they feel freaky hot
i run this show, you got to slow
pick up the pace, with you cracked out face
pop the glock,pop the glock, pop the glock, pop the glock, pop the glock pop the glock pop the glock, the glock you pop
pop the glock,pop the glock, pop the glock, pop the glock, pop the glock pop the glock pop the glock, the glock you pop
if you outta line its you ill bang pop
There's this song that I heard on Tiesto's clublife podcast a few weeks ago. He always mixes current and classic songs in the dance/electronica world....Its absolute a must-subcribe-to podcast if you love that kind of music!
Anyways, the song is by Eva Simons and it is titled "Silly Boy"...
NO PEOPLE! THIS ISN'T RIHANNA, THIS ISN'T LADY GAGA!
I think the actual single release was earlier this summer. So if you listen to the song, its basically about how this ex of hers is trying to reach out to her now after they broke up. She wants nothing to do with him. He's a silly boy to think that she'll take him back ;)
I agree. Maybe its because I'm young and haven't had anyone worthy of going back with...I know my worth and I'm above it all (not trying to sound conceited honestly). I think once its done and over with, that's it. i don't like repeating things and that includes boys ;)
Believe it or not this 24yr old Dutch artist has been out since 2004 when she won a reality talent show called Popstars. She was in a girl band called Raffish for a while. Silly boy is her first solo single...She's still working on her album....I can't wait to hear it....I hope its good!
"Half the world is composed of people who have something to say and can't, and the other half who have nothing to say and keep on saying it". -Robert Frost
Today I'm not necessarily addressing the quote precisely. I'm just going to talk about what came to mind.....
Some of the most profound, intelligent, & admired individuals are the ones who rarely say a word. Some of the most annoying and idiotic people on earth are the ones who keep talking and honestly have no "silencio" (silence) button on them. (its not always the case but this is the case i'd like to discuss, so hush yo mouth hehe)
I've noticed that sometimes the ones that keep talking incessantly really are rather like a baby in the beginning stages of life who's learning to speak. You hear a whole lot 'o' nothing basically... "goo goo ga ga" = nada! Nothing makes sense, some things are absurd, some are offensive and insensitive and just uncalled for. They just love talking for the sake of talking. I think some do it just for attention by their peers. I can only take so much of the ramblings from people before I get tired of being around them.
The quieter ones are usually the wisest of all. By allowing themselves to sit back and observe their surroundings, they are able to gather their thoughts in their heads before saying anything. When they finally do say something its soooooo insightful! You should really pay attention to them although they are quiet mainly. =)
Don't get me wrong, I love people that talk alot, but just not the ones that don't think before they say what they say. I love meaningful conversations, not stupid mindless jibber jabber. Part of the process of life is learning. If you're talking 99.9% of the time, you're not learning shit (pardon my french)! Its also cool to just lay back and chill and take in everything around you! You must be comfortable with silence. You must be open and willing to hear others out, to just exist and not say a word.
I think this is something I'll try to do daily on this blog....
I'm gonna have more downtime after this week to focus on my hobbies =)
Today's quote of the day : "Success is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful." Albert Schweitzer (1875-1965) German theologian, philosopher, and physician.
I definitely learned this the hard way. I've just always had instilled in my head that I was going to be some successful rich girl once I finished at the state university.
I didn't really care about what I had to study to get there. When I first put in my applications for college I chose Nutritional Science as my major, just because I saw that my aunt was a Nutritional Science major and she earned a lot of money. Money was what I thought would bring me happiness.
So years went by and then I started going into my major core classes and a started doing poorly in those classes. I had no motivation to listen, to study...I was just a body in a classroom counting down when class would be over so I could go on with my day, wasting it away. My head was in another place; I was off in my own world, dreaming mostly.
This past year I had to really sit down and reevaluate my situation...Is college for me? Do I really want to study Nutritional Science? Do I really want to just work full-time already and now earn a degree? I thought about what it is that I wanted,day after day, after day. With the recession and everything I concluded I should stay in college and I wanted to stay in college. I notice I do things much better if its something that I love doing, something that I have a passion for.
My life dream is to travel the world and help other people. I'm very giving by nature as my friends & family can tell you. I'm also very outgoing and adventurous and I love to travel. I mean, even a little joy ride excites me! lol...So i figured I would be of better use to the world and bring about my own happiness if I were doing both things. So now i'm studying Global Studies and I'm so happy about it! =) So i'm definitely not one of those 4yrs straight of college and out into the work force kind of gal. Since i'm now starting this, i expect at least 2yrs more of schooling.
NI MODO!(Oh well/who cares) Its what I have a passion for, its something that makes me smile just thinking about it.
Do stay true to yourself. Do what you love doing. If you have a love for something you are more motivated to accomplish it, to perfect it.
"Hatred is gained as much by good works as by evil. " -Niccolo Machiavelli
Today is a very chill day and I'm just reading over quotes. It helps me clear my mind or get a better sense of why things happen. I have to agree with what Machiavelli is trying to say here.
What he's basically saying is that you can be the nicest person in the world who is out there doing great things and you will still have just about the same amount of enemies or people that dislike you just as much as someone who only commits evil acts.
I feel like people put into their heads that they won't like a person even before really getting to know them. Sometimes its just pure jealousy/envy that makes one hate someone. They have what they want, or they're doing what they've always wanted to do.
I've just learned from experience not to bother with people like that. I'm not an absolutely wretched individual. I think I'm a good person. I mean, I mind my business, go to school, work, partake in some hobbies of mine, and just enjoy time with my family and friends. I don't think that just to hate me. I never wish evil on others. I let karma handle that.
Just be who you are and the people that really matter will be there to support you and love you.
Last weekend (11.21.09) to continue in celebrating my 22nd birthday I went with two of my best friends to watch the world's #1 Dj, Tiësto, play at the Cow Palace in San Francisco, California. This had to be one of the highlights of the year for me. To think, I wasn't even planning on going!
I don't know if its just me, but when I'm going to turn another year older, I like to plan and make sure that my celebration is a memorable for myself and for all of my friends. I love seeing everyone I love and care about happy =) When I was planning out the sorts of things I wanted to do for my birthday week, I came across Ruby Skye, one of SF's best nightclubs. They are always up to date and keep one informed of all the upcoming dance events at their venue or at any large concert venue. Tiesto just so happened to be performing on my birthday week! I got all excited and then I remembered "oh yea....my friends don't like dance music" =( So i scratched that off on my potential to-do list.
So I kept planning and was only going to go bar-hopping, go to dinner, and go to a club in the city for the week. But!, one of my best friends hit me up and asked me about the Tiesto concert and if I was going. *cue the hallelujah music* I completely forgot that he was one of my only friends that dug dance music as well! I was so elated to hear that he wanted to go! So within minutes I purchased my ticket online. I was good to go!
The week before my birthday I was talking about how excited I was with my other friends and they seemed bummed that they couldn't come due to the low funds at the moment. Me being who I am, I offered to spot them. In my book, there's not rush on paying me back. I feel like my friends and I will eventually pay eachother back with all the countless number of times we've all spotted one another or treated someone out one day, just because. I love my friends. They're just kind and generous; how most people need to be in this world. Eventually only one agreed and her and I went this past saturday to watch Tiesto.
She never was a fan of dance music, but she is a fan of broadening her horizons and a lover of live music. When we first got there she kind of seemed uncomfortable with the scene. Once we got inside however, it was a completely different story!
There were so many things going on all at once! It was bananas! There were break dancers, older couples, young teenagers, young adults, ravers, non-ravers, vip persons, concession stands at every corner, people smoking and drinking, others were under the influence of ecstasy (i don't judge ;D) and et cetera. But despite the many differences in the crowd, we were all accepting of everyone. Dance concerts are unlike any other kind of concert I've been to. Its not about trying to get up to the front to take good pictures of the artist, or dj or groupd. Its just solely about the music and how it makes us feel.
I thought Tiesto was absolutely fabulous! #1 world dj, is a well-deserved title for him. Everything was flowing well, transitions were on point, the songs were all high energy, he kept the crowd dancing all night long. Not a moment did it feel like it was dragging. I don't know how else to put it, but Tiesto's Kaleidoscope Tour was SENSATIONAL!
When we were going home, my friend told me "I never really understood the whole dance scene, but now, I GET IT" She had a great time there, even if it was her first time hearing Tiesto's music. She is now a dance lover convert. We were in such a good mood that night, we were all very happy! There's just something about dance music that just allows one to get lost into a world and forget actualy reality for just a moment in time. Its kind of euphoric. I'm itching to go to another dance concert now. I think I will definitely be adding more dance into our lives.
I'm in a dance-only phase right now. Im seriously just listening to Radio 538 : Tiesto's Club Life podcast, Roger Sanchez's Release Yourself podcast, and Above & Beyond's Trance podcast.
I leave you with a video clip I shot at the concert. This is from Tiesto's latest album "Kaleidoscope". Its called Escape Me ft. CC Sheffield.
For most of you that follow me on twitter, you already know about my latest tattoo. If you recall from my previous blog post about tattoos I said I wanted to tattoo my inner bottom lip. Well I did it! The week of my birthday, my friend, who's a tattoo artist, tattooed my inner lip. Originally I wanted to have "Hustler" tattooed on me but I changed my mind and got "Savage" tattooed.
Honest to blog!, having my lip tattooed was pain free! The process didn't take long either; it took her about 5 minutes to write "Savage" on my lip. The rest of the time she just went back to touch up and make the ink darker. Most of you that don't know me might think I'm so ridiculous for tattooing something like "Savage" onto me. But you're wrong. It totally has significance to who I am.
People see me as a sweet little girl and nothing more usually from first sight. That's one side of me, the sweet part, but that's not all that I bring to the table. I'm wild, adventurous, spontaneous, fearless, curious, rebellious, careless at times, and fun. Its that SCORPIO in me; its that fire. "Savage" is somewhat of my silent rebellion, my way of flippin the bird to everyone who thinks of people with tattoos as beneath them. Tattoos have no correlation to how civilized or how educated a person is. Get that through your skulls people. "Savage" shows my sense of adventure, my humor, and my lack of fear. "Savage" reminds me to be true to who I am and never to conform to the expectations that people have of me. Its my life and I need to live it the way I want to live it.
Lately all this talk about tattoos has gotten me pretty anxious to get another one. I just adore tattoos! I think they're great forms of expression for the tattoo artist and the person getting tattooed. I know its become quite a fad now and its sort of taking away from the spirituality and meaningfulness that tattoos have for people that don't get them solely for the attention or to "look cool" I get tattoos to pay homage to people, or beliefs in my life; to remind me of my strengths & qualities. Basically to better show off who I am.
This first one I got in 2007. This is one is of two pink plumeria flowers that I got done at New Skool Tattoo in San Jose, CA. For me, it was so easy to decide on this one. The actual meaning of a plumeria is beauty, perfection, life, birth, and the coming together of everything good in the world. Its so positive! For myself, I also relate flowers to being female. Flowers are bold, diverse, delicate, yet powerfully captivating. Every flower is special in its own way & that is why I love it. My last name means flower in Spanish also, so I'm paying honor to my family & to the women in my family. This tattoo has since been kind of fading since I got all brown this summer haha. I need to get this one touched up and make the color more vibrant.
ADVICE: Be very careful in the selection of flower that you get, if you decide to get one. I think this is why people regret their tattoos because they don't research the meanings behind their piece. For instance, before I was sure I was going to get an tiger lily tattooed on me. Thank goodness I researched because I found out the tiger lily represents jealousy. 0_o eeek! NO THANK YOU!
My second tattoo is of a gladiolus flower. I just recently got this one. Cousins!, if you guys are reading this, DO NOT, I repeat DO NOT go running your mouth to your family because you know how they all are. Its like were playing telephone! >( NOT GOOD, ILL DISOWN YOU! Okay, anyways, My gorgeous sisters(I'm not lying, they're pretty lol *brownie pts*) and I all have this one in the same location. The coloring of the gladiolus varies between my sisters and I, because we are all different skin colors so our tattoo artist Tanja from Lyle Tuttle in San Francisco,CA advised us that she would tweak the colors accordingly. We got this tattoo all together to seal our sisterhood and unity on our skin =) The gladiolus flower also means strength of character; that of which I feel really represents us. My sisters and I are very strong people and we show it differently. No matter what kind of people we run into in this life of ours, we stay true to ourselves and never let people influence us. My friends all like this one. According to my best friend Jessica, it looks like those temporary lick on tattoos haha!
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Everyone thinks I'm crazy for this one, but for my third tattoo I would like to tattoo the inside of my bottom lip. Its gonna be quite an experience that's for sure! At first I was thinking of putting in "Bonafide" but everyone that I've spoken to doesn't approve. Sad =( So what I feel would best represent my personality is the word Hustler"(or maybe I'll spell it "Husalah") I'm not trying to say that I really AM a hustler. Hustler just shows off my sense of humor. If you don't know me personally, you should know that my sense of humor can be very wicked cool and sarcastic. People already assume I'm a "gangsta' girl" because I can come off as intense and hard. So I figure Hustler goes to play on the misconceptions that people have about me. Other reasons for getting this done is just to remind myself to not give a f^&* about what people want me to do or what anyone thinks of me. Its a reminder to always do what I want and go for it full-heartedly! Its a reminder to never let others affect my decisions. I'm switching up my tattoo artist again too! I like the work I've gotten done on me but I don't want to just stick to the things I know. I like trying new things, people, etc. My next tattooist will be my friends girlfriend. She's an art student and she is re-starting up her tattooing services. She has some extremely good art pieces that she's shown me. So I have full confidence that she will do exceptional work! Afterall, she's tattooed herself as well! =)
Following my lip tattoo its a little blurry. I have so many styles that I like, but I'm not sure how well they will blend with my flower tattoos. I have always been fascinated and admired the artwork & calligraphy of Asia as well as ancient Egyptian art. My body is a canvas and I want it to be cohesive. I like the idea of having the kanji symbols for strength & beauty.
I also am thinking about getting a geisha girl or the egyptian goddess Ma'at. The geisha woman represent being cultured. I am very open-minded and I love learning about new cultures whenever possible. The geisha represents my love for the world and the want to be a worldly person and to travel the world. Ma'at is goddess of truth, justice, harmony, & balance on earth. Those are qualities in a person that I love and respect. Ma'at is a symbol for what I want in my life, what I always strive to have around me. I will most likely also continue to add onto my flower collection. Tattoo is art and I am an art supporter ;) I could go on and on about tattoos but I'll stop here. Feel free to contact me if you want someone to talk to about tattoos, this subject never ever bores me ;)
Her new album Come To Life, is set to come out 02/2010
She has two new songs called & Wild About It & Want. The video for Want is sexy! I like the song because it kind of puts you in the shoes of a women who has been hurt by a lover. While he's off moving on with his life, she is still feeling hurt and can't seem to move on. She's somewhat bitter, but nevertheless, I love it. I've never felt that way, but I can only imagine how one must feel. Doesn't sound too nice.
I've always been a fan of hers. She never really got that much notice following her hit single Torn from the album Left Of The Middle (1997)
She later released her sophmore album White Lilies Islands.
If you haven't heard White Lilies Island I recommend you do so. Its so ethereal, soft, lovely and romantic. Some of her singles from White Lilies included: Wrong Impression, Come September, & Butterflies.
Later she released Counting Down The Days in 2005. Her single Shiverreceived notice alongside James Blunts Beautiful and Coldplay's Speed of Sound for the Ivor Novello Award in the PRS most-performed work category in 2006.
Basically this is a re-introduction to Natalie Imbruglia, the gorgeous multi-talented Aussie. Go check out her latest song and peep her new album in 02/2010 Before her music career began, she was a famous actress in Australia and known for her work in the Aussie Soap Opera Neighbours
Will it ever end? I ask myself this time and time again. Just when I think we're making progress, I have to hear someone say something stupid and so separatist. I'm referring to the division amongst women.
You don't understand how frustrated I am with it all! Its like you ladies complain about the progression of women and how not all of us are succeeding at that; but don't you think we have to be united in order for that to work?
All this female on female crime & hatred is not the best way to go about things.
Women, or rather girls, because real women don't behave that way, talk down on other girls because of race, relationship status, and etc.
When a guy breaks a girls heart and leaves her for another, who does she automatically get mad at? The girl! Its ridiculous! Why are you getting mad at her?, he was the one who was deceitful or just stopped liking you. Instead you should be mad at him; that is, if you want to get angry at someone. This girl didn't like me before because the guy that she thought she had wrapped around her fingers took interest in me. She started gossiping amongst her friends and calling me all sorts of names. I mean, I didn't even know she existed until he informed me about her and what she was saying. All this time, she could've just focused all that energy on herself and have moved on. You can't make every guy you like feel anything for you. If it doesn't work out, don't get mad at the new girl! It just gives guys the idea that they can play with us and not suffer any consequences. Get real! Think logically!
Another thing I notice is that women separate themselves from other women of different races. Its the 21st century! Women talk about other women of other races. Does it make you feel better to talk about the Asian girls? Black girls? Hispanic girls? Indian girls? Middle Eastern girls? Caucasian girls? etc? Do you think they're going to support you and like you after the comments you make about them? Do you think this helps your cause in the upward mobility and unity of all women worldwide? NO. I don't know why this happens. Maybe theres some sort of resentment for something that a girl of that particular race did to the other person. But you shouldn't generalize all women of that girls race as being bad or evil. Women, we need to look at eachother as individuals, not by the color of our skin.
These are just some of the ways we divide ourselves from other ladies. If you are guilty of any of these examples or others, you should check yourself and correct yourself. Don't place barriers amongst yourself and other women. We all want to become something better. We all want to see women advance. With wholeness and togetherness we can be the best. Set aside all your prejudices, jealousy, anger, and resentment aside. Love one another & support one another.
I'm used to being on my own
Ever since I could remember its been that way
Being the middle child, naturally I was left out
My little sister wanted to be like my older sister
And my older sister was too busy being rebellious to bother with me
At the time it sometimes made me sad because I was so young
And I just didn't understand this was common for many middle children
I moved around quite a bit growing up so I never really could attach myself to anything or anyone
Change is something inevitable in all our lives
I embrace it, others don't
I'm not afraid to venture out into the unknown alone
I think I've grown up to be a very solo-dolo, do-it-on-my-own type of person
Some people might think this is so "sad" but quite the contrary!
I think this is why I'm so adventurous, and outgoing
I think this is why I don't rely on anyone nor am dependent
Having to go through many changes such as moving and making new friends and doing things alone have made me this way
I have no trouble trying something new
I have no concerns if no one will agree to do something with me
My relationships haven't really suffered because of this
It's not like my sisters and I don't get along just because we were mean to each other growing up; we're like the best of friends now!
It's not like I have no friends because I've had to move around a lot; my true friends are still with me
The ones who are no longer in my life don't matter anymore
It's not like I'm anti-social; I love meeting new people all the time.
I think if I hadn't have been brought up to kind of fend for myself, I would be the opposite of what I just mentioned
I would have been a sheltered little girl who would've been afraid to do things alone, who would've been afraid to meet people outside of my circle, who would've relied too much on everyone around me
But you must know, that I'm not stubborn to ask for help all the time
I know when to turn to people for assistance and guidance
I'm not completely shut off on the idea of working with others and what not
So don't feel bad for me when you hear this
I'm a much better person because of it
I put a positive spin on everything
Okay I know ABSOLUTELY nothing about cars! But I know what I like and don't like. Here are some photos of some cars that I think are divine. I'd love to have one in the future, once I get all settled and stuff =)
I took this picture at the Gilroy Car Show in '07
Gilroy Car Show '07 isn't the Mustang such an American classic?!
A 1949 Jaguar XK-120 .... Its so charming and sleek to me. I fell in love with this car when I first saw Ryan Phillippe driving it in the movie Cruel Intentions
A 1970 Plymouth Hemi Barracuda ..muscle car!
And last but certainly not least, a 1970 Chevy Chevelle. This one is my ultimate favorite! Its just sooo clean(i mean cool)!!!!
There are plenty more kinds of cars that I like, but these are like the main ones on my tops list for what kind of car I want when I have my career and am financially secure. I'll have to buy it all suped up since I know nothing about fixing cars up.
NOTABLE MENTION: My cousin has a car club called 510 Motors located in the Bay Area.
You Can Contact Him & Check Out His Club Via: twitter: @510motorscc myspace: myspace.com/510motorscarclub youtube: youtube.com/510motorscarclub
I took this photo in 2007. It was in late June or early July I believe. This is a photo of my father, Manuel holding my nephew Gabriel as we were leaving the Buddhist temple in Oahu
My family and I went to Hawaii to enjoy the summer over there for a week. We stayed in Oahu for the most part and went to visit Maui for a day.
Looking back on this photo, it brings so many memories of the time we all spent and all of what happened the year of 2005. In '05 I finished high school. But what always remains in my heart is when my grandfather passed away that year. I was heart broken, it had been a long time coming but I didn't think it would've have happened around my graduation.
The rest of that year was kind of dramatic for me as well. My sister became pregnant and one of my best friends was going through a very serious situation. I would elaborate on it, but I don't want to invade their privacy, nor am I comfortable discussing every detail. All i can say is that naturally, I became affected by all of this. Juggling school and trying to be there for everyone was tiring me out.
But by the summer of 2006 everything seemed to turn around for the best. My friend had finally gotten her life in order and was away from the negativity that had left a dark cloud over her head for most of 2005. On June 10, 2006, I distinctly remember getting a call from my little sister, while I was in the middle of watching The Omen at the movie theaters. Of course I thought nothing of it and just let the phone ring (silent mode, that is, because i'm courteous). Then she sent me a text "Where are you?! Lisa's water broke!" My first thoughts "Oh shit! you guys we have to go! My sister's water broke!" So we all joined together and met up at the hospital.
It was just me and my best friends and my direct family. The ones who held it down for me that whole past year. The ones who I've stood by and supported like no other. All united at a hospital to witness the birth of my nephew. Gabriel Guillermo Flores.
Funny thing is, my sister ended up staying in labor for about 33hrs! lol So we left the movie for nothing and my sister had to deliver by Cesarean operation. Go figure! =) But waiting for the birth was that moment in which everything just made sense to me, I was in a calm and happy state of mind. I felt centered and whole as odd and confusing as that may sound.
The rest of 2006 was spent cherishing every precious moment I had with my family and the addition to our life. We all bonded more with him around. He was the reason to our smiles, to our joy, to our laughter. He was the reason we became a stronger unit more than ever. My sister believes in reincarnation and she felt that Gabriel was a reincarnation of my grandfather, hence, she gave him the 2nd name, Guillermo, in honor of my grandfather. That year went by so quick! Its amazing how fast babies grow up! I think we have enough documentation of his first year =)
So this photo shows me how far we've come along as a family and how good of friends I had at that time in my life. Its so great to look at this photo and remember all the times we shared in Hawaii that summer as a whole considering all that happened the years prior.
I can't believe I'm so uninformed with my fellow Bay Area folks. A few weeks ago I just barely learned about Jimmie Reign "The First Lady Of The Bay" by a fellow twitter friend. The first song I heard with her was with music artist Balance doing a cover of Drake's hit "Best I Ever Had"
Her voice is pure and angelic, yet so strong and controlled.
Jimmie Reign grew up in San Francisco Bay Area. She is the oldest of four girls. She learned how to sing through her father who was a preacher. When her parents divorced, things got complicated for her. "Things in my life changed so drastically," divulges the siren, "I was forced to grow up quickly because of new responsibilities. Consequently, I didn't really have a childhood and a lot of my songs reflect things that have happened during that time."
Because of the things that she's gone through in her life, she is among one of the most well liked singers in the Bay Area. She a realness to her and you can relate to her struggles in life. Jimmie's music covers topics such as relationships, being a single mother and much more. "When people see me, they don't expect me to sing about the topics I do or be as real as I am. They think I am a woman who has everything going for her but really it's not that easy. I have the same troubles with relationships that the next woman has, I have a family to take care of and I've got haters just like everyone else," Jimmie states. "The difference is that I am learning to put a positive spin on everything negative. I am learning to control my temper when negativity arises, and I am also learning that it's ok to be by myself- I don't need to be in a relationship in order to define who I am. I am finding that balance between being a grown woman and being "Daddy's Little Girl"
Jimmie has worked with many people on her music. She's worked with the likes of J. Valentine, E-40, The Team, Clyde Carson, Traxamillion, Brian Morgan, Terry Ellis, Paul Anthony, Lea, BedRock, Taj Mahal and much more.
I see many good things in her future. So be on the lookout for this Bay Area songstress.
Her music is available now on DatPiff.com. Her mixtape is titled "Go Girl"
“Jimmie Reign is my best kept secret. She is one of my favorite singer/songwriters because she sings with so much passion and her lyrics are so heartfelt. I don’t know why she hasn’t been put on yet!”
-Damon Eden, A&R, Atlantic Records "Jimmie Reign's 'Tryin' To Be Your Girl' delivers a fresh and sultry spin on the Camp Lo hit, "Luchini" that is certain to keep the club hoppin'!!!"
-James Leach, Director of Writer/Publisher Relations, SESAC
“With her second single JIMMIE is set to REIGN as R&B’s next big "SUPERSTAR"
-Tawala Sharp, Music Director, 100.3 The Beat L.A.“Jimmie Reign is a hot up & coming artist who has a sound unlike anything I’ve ever heard before! She definitely has the tools to go the distance! Love the voice and love the song!”
-Box Kev, DJ, 106.1 KMEL“Jimmie Reign is a gifted singer/songwriter whose talent goes beyond music. She has a story to tell and it’s coming from the heart.”
-Marcel Anderson, A&R Coordinator, NFLUENCE RECORDS/TMG“Jimmie Reign is a hot , young talent that has always been ready for the majors. I think now is her time!”
-Sean Kennedy, Founder, ILL TRENDZ RADIO PROMOTIONS“I really like Jimmie Reign’s ‘Tryin’ 2 Be Your Girl’ I think it could be a hit!”
-Saeed Crumpler, Rap Retail Buyer, RASPUTINS RECORD STORE
Why is there this constant obsession with being in relationships? I keep reading and hearing people talk about wanting to find someone to be happy. How can you base your happiness on whether you have a partner or not?
Don't get me wrong! I'm not some scorned woman wanting everyone to be miserable. lol I do think being in a relationship can be a good thing; that is, if you go into one for all the RIGHT reasons.
People say they want to have a boyfriend/girlfriend because they don't want to be alone and feel unhappy. As the old saying goes "If you are not happy with yourself, then you are in bad company". I don't think you can truly be in a good relationship if you don't love yourself. I think in a way its also a slap in the face to the people already in your life. So basically, even though were here, you're still not happy aside from us always being there for you and going out doing fun things" "Are we just what you resort to when you're single?" I feel like people force themselves to get involved with people just to have someone. I know some people who although normally wouldn't go out with a certain type of guy, they do anyways just because they feel like someone is better than no one. They trick their minds into believing that they actually do like them. Or sometimes they go in with false hopes that they will actually learn to like them, but never really do.
Don't go into a relationship just to get gifts out of the other person; its such a selfish and heartless thing to do to them. You act as you like them as a bf/gf just so that they can spoil you?! Someone that is capable of doing that has no compassion and heart. They don't take into consideration that the other person might actually really like them. They're just playing with their emotions for material things. The person that ends up getting hurt is the person who actually wanted to make it work. The person who actually had feelings for the other person. Its such a sad thing to see happen to good people with good intentions. Seriously, its called a job! Get one and stop living off of others by playing mind games with them!
So the moral of the story is, do the right thing! ^_^ Do not play with people's emotions. Don't lead people on just because for the time being its convenient or because you're lonely. One should consider the feelings of others. The right time to be in a relationship is when you truly, truly care for someone and they like you just as much. *Releeeeeeeeeease* I love ranting lol
Right now Shades Of Me is on soundcheck.com and he needs your votes folks!
Its a shame how so many talented artists are slept on. Dom P is one of them.
I really admire strong powerful women who just don't care what others think about them. It lets me know, its okay to not worry about impressing others. As long as you are doing & saying what you want, then everything is fine.
One of the most profound confident women ever to have graced this earth was Mae West. Mae West was one of the top actresses of her time in the 20's She was best known for always playing the dominating female leads. She was both dominating on film and in real life. She was a force to be reckoned with. Her thoughts were provacative and yet at the same time very honest. I admire her strength and openness about her sexuality and being a woman.
Here are some of my favorite quotes by her; Enjoy!
Don't marry a man to reform him -- that's what reform schools are for
Men? Sure, I've known lots of them. But I never found one I liked well enough to marry. Besides, I've always been busy with my work. Marriage is a career in itself and to make a success of it you've got to keep working at it. So until I can give the proper amount of time to marriage, I'll stay single
I like a man who's good, but not too good -- for the good die young, and I hate a dead one
I go for two kinds of men. The kind with muscles, and the kind without
Personally, I like two types of men - domestic and foreign
Men are my hobby. If I ever got married I'd have to give it up.
The score never interested me, only the game
I'm no angel, but I've spread my wings a bit
Look your best -- who said love is blind?
A man can be short and dumpy and getting bald but if he has fire, women will like him
Ten men waiting for me at the door? Send one of them home, I'm tired.
Every man I meet wants to protect me. I can't figure out what from
It's not the men in my life that count, it's the life in my men.
It's all right for a perfect stranger to kiss your hand as long as he's perfect.
Love thy neighbor -- and if he happens to be tall, debonair and devastating, it will be that much easier.
Good women are no fun. The only good woman I can recall in history was Betsy Ross. And all she ever made was a flag
You can do what you want, but saving love doesn't bring any interest.
Brains are an asset to the woman in love who's smart enough to hide 'em
Some women pick men to marry -- and others pick them to pieces
Cultivate your curves -- they may be dangerous but they won't be avoided.
Women with "pasts" interest men because men hope that history will repeat itself
The best way to behave is to misbehave
You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough
When I'm good, I'm very good. When I'm bad, I'm better
It's hard to be funny when you have to be clean
I'm a woman of very few words, but lots of action
It isn't what I do, but how I do it. It isn't what I say, but how I say it, and how I look when I do it and say it
When choosing between two evils, I always like to try the one I've never tried before
Marriage is a great institution, but I'm not ready for an institution yet
When women go wrong, men go right after them.
It is better to be looked over than overlooked
To err is human, but it feels divine
Sex is emotion in motion
Those who are easily shocked should be shocked more often
I never worry about diets. The only carrots that interest me are the number you get in a diamond
A dame that knows the ropes isn't likely to get tied up
I never loved another person the way I loved myself
Since I went out to the theaters recently, I started to pay attention to my surroundings and all of the people that attend. I find that its mostly high schoolers and young couples that go to theaters to catch a flick.Yesterday was a reminder of why I hate going to movie theaters.
First off, when its a new most sought after movie, you know its going to be a packed house. Sure enough, my friends and I had to watch the midnight showing because the showing that we had intended on going to was already sold out. Its annoying that now even at movie theaters you have to "pre-order" your tickets in order to be guaranteed a seat. Plain ridiculous. So we go to the doors where we were going to watch the movie and we were welcomed with a big line of people already in line waiting for the doors to open to get their seats. Great. I notice that when the line starts moving into the theather, everyone tries to cut in between others. That makes it more chaotic because sometimes you end up splitting up from whoever you came with, which in turn, delays you from finding a seat. By the time you both make in, its too late to sit around the middle area because everyone ran and took those seats. Good thing, this past trip to the theaters I didn't have to deal with that because we took a different route than the rest of the crowd. Skills.
When you finally make it to your seat, some people leave their things to go buy snacks. Leaving their items with one person of their group will guarantee no one will steal their seat. Its annoying when they come back with loads of junk food and they have to get past you because they chose to sit smack dab in the middle. I don't know if its just me, but i find the smell of all the junk food to be atrocious. And because everyone brings in various types of food, the smells somehow combine into something unnatural and not great for my senses.
Sometimes a person can be the unfortunate one in having to sit in front of someone that's always moving their feet around and hitting the back of their seats. I've had that problem before and I had to turn around and give her a dirty look for her to get the picture. ^_^ It felt good to put her in her place with the stink eye haha!
Since the majority of the movie-goers when I go tend to be young kids and teenagers, it is expected that childish behavior is to be seen. I find that they take pleasure in wasting money on junk food and not eating it. Instead, they choose to throw around popcorn and make a huge mess for the theater employees to clean up once the showing is over. I've caught a few boys before throwing popcorn directly at the people below them just for fun to get a reaction out of them.
Do you get those reminders on a movie screen before a movie starts to turn off your phone? Why is there always someone who doesn't listen?! The woman who sat next to me recently, walked in late, so I had to move myself from my comfortable position just so she could come seat near me; and she forgot to turn off her phone. Her ringtone went off and it was vibrating very loud. She had to be slow about it too >(. It took her forever to get it out of her pocket and then she stops to stare at the screen, tell her boyfriend who's calling, and then turn it off. All the while, the backlight was so bright and shining in my face! If it wasn't for my calm rational self, I would've yelled at her for interrupting me.
Oh yes! Can't forget about those loud mouths at the movies. I don't mind if you express your opinions or react during a scene in a movie. But that doesn't mean that the whole room has to hear you. "Don't do it!" "She's hella dumb for that one! I would've this...and I would've that...." Common statements yelled out at the movies. I can't even hear what the actors are even saying when everyone is yelling over them! Occasionally, they ruin the next scene for you too! They'll blurt out what will happen next, and sure enough it happens, and it just kills the surprise/suspense in the movie. The scaredy-cats are just as annoying too if not more. While I was watching Paranormal Activity this past week, almost all of the little girls were screaming when there was a strange noise during the scenes. I know I'm one of the few people that rarely get scared but its like come on, that scene was not scary at all even for a scaredy-cat! I wonder if maybe they do it on purpose as well, seeing that their young and love pushing other peoples buttons.
These are the reasons why i hate going to the movies. if i didn't have to deal with these kinds of people all the time, then maybe I would go more often. The average demographic of movie-goers turns me away from theaters. Perhaps they should put reminders before the movie to be courteous to others and shut your mouths, dont talk about whats going to happen, dont scream for every little thing, turn off your phones, dont kick seats in front of you and etc. I'm not saying all of these kids and persons are annoying and do these things, but majority do. There are exceptions, i know. So don't get all offended over what I say. Its just my opinion and I'm venting
What i always find to be helpful in my personal life are books on philosophy. I personally prefer to read ancient Greek philosophy and a few modern philosophers here and there.
I'm currently reading Meditations by Marcus Aurelius Antoninus. Let me give you a little background information on this man. Marcus Aurelius (161-180) was a roman emperor orphaned at a young age until his uncle Antoninus Pius adopted him. He took on his name thereafter. Antoninus was the successor of Hadrian's throne; which made Marcus the successor to Antoninus. Marcus always had the privileged life. He was taught by some of the most elite instructors. Throughout his lifetime he compiled a book of all of his teachings from his uncle, his instructors, fellow philosophers & his own thoughts. Marcus Aurelius Antoninus was one of the pioneers of Stoic philosophy.
I love how everything makes perfect sense to me. Reading books can sometimes feel like you're reading another language & you worry the whole time trying to get the literal meaning rather than trying to understand the actual message the author is trying to convey (e.g. the infamous yet oh so good plays of William Shakespeare) to readers. But not this book; anyone can read this and understand it with ease. His book touches almost every topic such as death, friendships, ambition, motivation, stress, fear etc.
Life is pretty hectic for me at times. I try not to let things get to me, but I am human, & sometimes I can crack. This is when I turn to philosophy. Philosophy gives great insight on life and I find it to be one of the most motivating things for me. After reading a few excerpts I am suddenly enlightened, revived, strong, and ready to conquer the world.
I'll probably post some excerpts from the book for readers to check out later tonight or this week. But for now I'll leave you with this.
For further information regarding Stoicism:
http://www.geocities.com/westhollywood/heights/4617/stoic.html
http://www.iep.utm.edu/stoicmind/
Just lately, I've been listening to alot of Dance/Electronica music. It tends to enhance my moods. Its great motivation when I'm working out. The beats are infectious. The lyrics are simple, but simple enough to have it stuck in your head for days. Many have asked, are you a raver? I haven't really done the whole rave scene, although, I would love to. Too bad most of my friends aren't really into all the genres of music that I'm into. Or else, I would've already been making a name for myself at all raves from NorCal to SoCal partying it up. I'm still young, I'm 21, so I think I still have time to investigate ;).
Anyways, my twitter buddy @HDiddyDollar sent me a link to the new David Guetta-One Love album. Its amazing! One Love features artists like Estelle, Ne-Yo, Kelly Rowland, & Kid Cudi to name a few. If I had to select a few songs for you to check out, I would hands down say On The Dancefloor ft Will.I.Am & Apl D Ap, I Wanna Go Crazy ft Will.I.Am, If We Ever ft Makeba, & Toyfriend ft Wynter Gordon & Afrojack. If We Ever is a slower dance song; I just find it to be very sweet. All the other ones I've just mentioned will have you shaking your ass nonstop.
So earlier this week I was walking home from school. I was minding my own business listening to music on my iPod when I saw a group of women who were Jehovah Witnesses members, worshipers; whatever you'd like to call them.
I personally do not believe in God and I have been approached many times by these Jehovah Witness followers time and time again. I try to avoid because they are like pushy salesmen. I tell them I'm busy but they are not considerate to me; they just continue pestering me with the word of "God"
Anyways, I start to steadily increase my walking speed to get out of the situation asap, but one woman started walking my pace and started pulling out their magazines and the bible and asking me if I wanted some scriptures read to me from the Holy Bible. I politely declined and told her I was not interested. Then she was saying in spanish, "well let me just read you one, it'll only take a minute of your time." I just blatantly told her the truth, "I don't believe in GOD, so the bible really has no significance or importance in my life" You would think when you tell someone that you're not interested that they would respect your wishes and fall back. Not in this case! She kept at it and wanted to get down to the bottom of why I didn't believe in God and throwing in jabs about how people that have no religion are bad.
I hate hate hate, when people tell others what they should believe, that they are wrong, that they are not good people because of it. Who the hell was she to tell me that I'm wrong. There is no universal right & wrong. We all have different ideas on what is right and wrong. I used to be Catholic, and just like the Jehovah Witnesses they say to love your neighbors. So if I am considered a neighbor, why was she being aggressive towards me and attacking my views?! Shouldn't she just have respected that we have differences? I have caught myself a few times baggin on friends for being of a certain religion. But I realized this and have since then stopped saying anything to them about it. I mean, they doesn't force their religion onto me, so why should I be a jerk and talk negatively about their religion?
Anyways, I don't care for people or religions for that matter who find it neccessary to put down other peoples religions/views for the sake of winning "converts". I have been studying religion in cultures for my Cultural Geography class and I've learned a little bit about a few groups. I learned a little about Judaism, Catholiscism, Christianity, Islam, Buddhism, & etc. I believe in some of their views but not all.
This is my thinking: I don't believe in God. I don't believe in following a religion. I don't think I am a bad person because I have no affiliation to a group. I'm agnostic. Meaning, I believe that there is a higher power or some force that controls the happenings of life; but as far as giving "it" a name?..there is no name for me. I'm a woman of science, I need solid evidence before I can believe something. Just because it was written in a book is not enough proof for me to believe that Jesus, Moses, Mohammad, & others were prophets of this higher power that most refer to as God or Allah. I think I am just a strong believer in philosophy. Yes we evolved (my opinion) from primates, but that's not the end of the story. There are ways that one should conduct themselves. I think the utmost important thing that I can agree on with religions is that we have to be good people. I don't think its to be "saved" and sent over to the "heavens" or the "afterlife". I just think it pays to be a good person overall in this lifetime.
I just had to let that out. Once again, I'm not trying to bash religion, I'm just stating my viewpoints. By all means, join a religion if you truly believe in what they stand for, if you believe in a God or various Gods (for my Hindu friends). If it makes you happy, if it makes you a better person then I support you in your endeavors to be a better human being.Just respect me and I will respect you.
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