15.3.10

Poems



I KNOW WHY THE CAGED BIRD SINGS- Maya Angelou

A free bird leaps on the back of the wind
and floats downstream till the current ends
and dips his wing in the orange suns rays and dares to claim the sky.
But a bird that stalks down his narrow cage
can seldom see through his bars of rage
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied so he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
of things unknown but longed for still
and his tune is heard on the distant hill
for the caged bird sings of freedom.
The free bird thinks of another breeze
and the trade winds soft through the sighing trees
and the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright lawn and he names the sky his own.
But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreams
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied so he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
of things unknown but longed for still
and his tune is heard on the distant hill
for the caged bird sings of freedom.
 

STILL I RISE

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I’ll rise.
Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
’Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.
Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I’ll rise.
Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.
Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don’t you take it awful hard
’Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines
Diggin’ in my own back yard.
You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I’ll rise.
Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I’ve got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?
Out of the huts of history’s shame - I rise
Up from a past that’s rooted in pain - I rise
I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear - I rise
Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear - I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

Recovering The Old Cristal

I'm so slow at deleting my myspace accounts...I've got a lot of history on them...I just remembered I wrote a few blogs on there before...I found this blog post and it just kinda made me smile..its titled Dream Man .. I wrote it about 2 years ago following a breakup...I wrote it because I felt like relationships make me forget about what I ultimately want in a guy...I settled and I feel bad about it...This was just to remind myself of what I want and what I deserve...enjoy...and like i said...this was yrs back...it doesn't mean i'm looking...im reminiscing on my old self =) I love to see the growth in me

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My Dream Man Doesn't Exist.

And if I could describe my soul-mate, he'd have to be super tall, dark, and handsome...I love green eyes but I won't discriminate if u don't have em...I know I'm semi-shallow but who isnt...lol...he's gotta be smart, thoughtful, funny, honest, loyal, faithful, friendly..he has to get along with my friends and my parents and sisters most importantly...i would prefer to be good friends with his, but its coo if it we're not just as along as we're cordial im good...I have 2 get along with his family(can't be having no irritating in-laws lol)...he has to b a driven individual wanting 2 do big things in his life....he has 2 treat me with respect, encourages me in all of my endeavors, will never lay a hand on me, admits when he's wrong, listens 2 me when I'm talking, treats me like im his everything just as i would, love me 4 who i am + never want 2 change me, never compare me 2 his exes, never think about his exes(the past is done and over with so get over it, that's hella weak!), spoil me 4rm time 2 time with something sweet and thoughtful), when we fight or are having problems in the relationship he can't b a quitter wen da goin gets tough, he has 2 stick it through + try 2 make it work, that shows dedication + love 4 me...he has 2 be open minded + down 2 try new things with me(stubbornness 24/7 is not cute)...he has 2 love dogs, love all types of music, loves 2 travel, loves kids, etc...I'm old fashioned so he has to make the 1st move...if he really loves me Mind, Body, and Soul then he'll be da one fighting 4 me n never giving up if i give him a hard time..."patience is the greatest of all virtues"...My deadline is 11-18-2012 hardy har har!!!! jk

8.3.10

Book: I Am An Emotional Creature: The Secret Life of Girl's Around The World

Yesterday I bought Eve Ensler's I Am An Emotional Creature: The Secret Life of Girl's Around The World.
 Ensler is best known for her book The Vagina Monologues. Within less than two hours I finished the book. I could not stop reading it! All the while, people were staring at me like I was crazy; riding the bike high speed at the gym while at the same time, very calm and reading away; unaware of the people around me. If a book can do that to me, then  you know this book is good. I usually have a short attention span for books haha.

This book is such a feel-good, lift your spirits type of book. Yes, there are some sad monologues but in a way it makes me feel more united with all girls around the world. I can put myself in their shoes. I think that was the purpose of Ensler writing this book. To make women aware of kind of travesties women endure. This book is to make us aware of who we really are and to embrace it and flaunt our beautiful complex souls. YES we are/can be emotional creatures, but we shouldn't let society make us believe that its a bad thing!

I'd like to leave with you some excerpts from the book. It was hard to choose because in all seriousness, every section I adored. They're pretty long, but I really feel that you will feel much better after reading them.

 INTRODUCTION
"Dear Emotional Creature, 
You know who you are. I wrote this book because I believe in you. I believe in your authenticity, your uniqueness, your intensity, your wildness. I love the way you dye your hair purple, or hike up your short skirt, or blare your music while you lip-sync every single memorized lyric. I love your restlessness and your hunger. You are one of our greatest natural resources, you Possess a necessary agency and energy that if unleashed could transform, inspire, and heal the world.

I know we make you feel stupid, as if being a teenager meant you were temporarily deranged. We have become accustomed to muting you, judging you, discounting you, asking you --- sometimes even forcing you --- to betray what you see and know and feel.

You scare us. You remind us of what we have forced to shut down or abandon in ourselves in order to fit in. You ask us by your being to question, to wake up, to reperceive. Sometimes I think we tell you we are protecting you when really we are protecting ourselves from our own feelings of self-betrayal and loss."

XXV
"This book is to call to question rather than to please. To provoke, to challenge, to dare, to satisfy your own imagination and appetite. To know yourself truly. To take responsibility for who you are, to engage. This book is a call to listen to the voice inside you that might want something different, that hears, that knows, the way only you can hear and know. It's a call to your original girl self, to you emotional creature self, to move at your speed, to walk with your step, to wear your color. It is an invitation to heed your instinct to resist war, or draw snakes, or to speak to the stars"


MY SHORT SKIRT (pp123-125)
My short skirt
is not an invitation
a provocation
an indication
that I want it
or give it
or that I hook.

My short skirt
is not begging for it
it does not want you
to rip it off me
or pull it up or down.

My short skirt
is not a legal reason 
for raping me
although it has been before
it will not hold up
in the new court

My short skirt, believe ir or not,
has nothing to do with you

My short skirt 
is about discovering 
the power of my calvs
about cool autumn air traveling
up my inner thighs
about allowing everything I see
or pass or feel to live inside.

My short skirt is not proof
that i am stupid
or undecided
or a malleable little girl.

My short skirt is my defiance.
I will not let you make me afraid.
My short skirt is not showing off,
this is who I am 
before you made me cover it
or tone it down.
Get used to it.

My short skirt is happiness.
I can feel myself on the ground
I am here. I am hot.
My short skirt is a liberation
flag in the women's army.
I declare these streets, any streets,
my vagina's country.

My short skirt 
is turquoise water with swimming colored fish
a summer festival in the starry dark
a bird calling
a train arriving in a foreign town.
My short skirt is a wild spin
a full breath
a tango dip.
My short skirt is 
initiation, appreciation, excitation.

But mainly my short skirt
and everything under it
is mine, mine, mine


PLEASE PICK UP EVE ENSLER'S BOOK. I ASSURE YOU THIS WILL NOT BE MONEY GONE TO WASTE. 

International Womens Day

First off let me just say HAPPY INTERNATIONAL WOMENS DAY!

I don't think many people are aware of this day because it has not really been discussed in the US. Other countries they've made it an official holiday. I wish the US did too.

Women have come a long way and I am proud of that. We may not be equal yet with men (although we should be 100%), but the fact that we're still fighting for our rights, that just shows me our undying determination.The battle for women's rights continues.

I just want all women today to embrace who they are. I want them to believe in themselves, to know that they are capable of doing anything. People might criticize us, put us down, or try to reprimand us; but never let them win. Fight for what is just!

You are beautiful creatures. Don't let anyone make you feel bad about who you are.

LET'S CELEBRATE LIFE AND WOMANHOOD
For more information please check out the International Women's Day Website